The Life of Adrian Liem ...

this is my scrambled notes and knowledge about what i think about spirit. this could be boring for you. don't read, if you feel you don't want to.

i used to think that, as long as i do not make other suffer, or i do not commit sins, i am ok. but recently i've been thinking a lot. i've been thinking that we live in a spiritual world. since it's my point of view, i think i will wrote half of this post from my religion point of view :) i write this post without any references, it only based on what is on my mind.

i think, if we drove a car, soul can be defined as the driver who pick the direction, body can be defined as the car, and spirit can be defined as the fuel. we need all three of them. and without a good spirit, i doubt we can reach the destination.

in my religion, we believe for the existence of the Holy Spirit. so there must be other spirits exists. there is good spirit, and there is bad spirit. spirit in bahasa indonesia can be translated as "roh", and also "semangat". i think it's pretty much the same. there is building spirit (semangat membangun) and devastating spirit (semangat merusak). what can't be considered as good spirit, should be considered as bad (evil) spirit.

for an example, there's a thing called the seven deadly sins. they are sloth (kemalasan), gluttony (kerakusan), envy (iri hati), wrath (amarah), lust (nafsu), pride (kesombongan), and greed (ketamakan). in my opinion, even if we did not do the seven deadly sins, by only having the spirit in ourselves (like to think to commit them, eventough we haven't done them), is already not a good thing. well maybe it's not a sin yet, but it is surely not a good thing.

in the last several days, i tried myself to eliminate the bad spirit within me. and it's very hard. the first evil spirit that i want to eliminate is pride. i just got a warning from God, through a friend of mine. it warned me to be humble, and hand in my life to God wholly (berserah sepenuhnya). i wish i could have a humble spirit within me.

it is said that God look through our heart to see whether we could go to heaven or hell. it is not written in the bible, but i think, maybe God will also look into our spirit, are we still keep the bad/evil spirit in us?

i believe spirit does exist, spirit does have form (though we cannot see it). my pastor said that one's spirit is coming out from the mouth when we died. and from my exorcism experiences, i know that my belief is the one (truth).

more about spirit, maybe one of the reason that i like my gf most is because she have so little bad spirit i found in her. and maybe you guys are also the same, you like the people around you because you like the spirit inside them.

i'm actually a little confuse about what to write in this post. i realize i still need to learn a lot about spirit -- but at least i've post what's on my mind now. maybe you can share what's on your mind about spirit? :)